WOW, LIFE HAS BEEN SO DIFFERENT FOR AND ONE ME SINCE I HAVE LAST BLOGGED....TO START OFF ON A GOOD NOTE....LAST SUMMER I FOUND A GREAT CHURCH AND A WONDERFULL CHURCH FAMILY AND MY WIFE TRACY AND I WERE BAPTIZED ON JULY 19TH 2009. LIFE HAS BEEN SPIRITUALLY GREAT FOR US SINCE THEN FOR UA BUT WE HAVE STILL HAVING SOME MAJOR EMOTIONAL SETBACKS.
THE FIRST WEEEK OF NOVEMBER MY COUSIN WHO IS ONLY 3 MONTHS OLDER THAN ME WHO LIVED IN VIRGINIA BEACH CAUGHT THE N1H1 VIRUS AND LOST HIS FIGHT WITH IT, HE WAS MORE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME. THOUGHT THE LAST FEW YEARS WE HADNT SPENT ALOT OF TIME TOGETHER LOSING HIM WAS A DEVESTATING LOSS TO ME. TO THIS DAY I STILL FIND IT HARD TO COMPREHEND HIM NOT EVER CALLING ME OR GETTING TO HEAR HIM ON THE PHONE WITH THE TONE OF HIS VOICE AND HIS RAW SENCE OF HUMOR...WOW THIS IS SO HARD TO EVEN FINISH...R.IP. CLINT..YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MISSED AND LOVED......DANG NOW I WANT A SNICKERS BAR AND SOME FRENCH FRIES....LOL THATS AN INSIDE THING...LOL WELL THEN LAST MONTH CLINTS MOM , MY AUNT JANE PASSED ON, I WAS DEALING WITH A MAJOR INFECTIONM IN MY LEG AFTER A KNEE SURGURY AND WAS UNABLE TO ATTEND HER FUNERAL. IT WAS HARD TO NOT GET TO SEE HER AGAIN BUT SHE HAD TOLD ME WHEN I LEFT IN NOVEMBER SHE DIDNT WANT TO BE ALIVE NO MORE THAT SHE WAS TIREED OF FIGHTING HER ILLNESSES SO BEFORE I LEFT I SAID MY GOODBYE TO HER AND CRIED BECAUSE SOME REASON I FEALT IT WAS THE LAST TIME I WOULD SEE HER. OMG SHE WAS SO FUNNY TO BE AROUND AND SO EASY TO GET GOING. ME AND CLINT AKLWAYS KNEW WHAT BUTTONS TO PUSH ON HER AND MY MOM AND EVEN MY AUNT SUZY IN TENN ALL THREE OF WHICH WERE SISTERS.. THEY ALL KNEW WHEN ANY OF US BOYS GOT TOGETHER IT WAS GOING TO BE TROUBLE OF SOME KIND DONE OR SAID....LMAO I CANT GO INTO DETAILS CAUSE SOME OF WHICH COULD STILL BE INCRIMINATING....LMAO
WELL THOSE WERE TO MAJOR JOLTS TO ME THIS PAST YEAR BUT MY CHURCH FAMILY HAS BEEN SO AWESOME TO ME AND MY FAMILY. JERRY AND JEAN BOWMAN WHO ARE THE COUPLE WHO CAME KNOCKING ON OUR DOOR AND TALKED TO US ABOUT THEIR CHURCH AND GOT US INTO ATTENDING CHURCH HAS BEEN A MONUMENTAL INSPIRATION TO ME AND TRACY. THEIR DAUGHTER GINA HAS ALSO BECOME A VERY CLOSE FRIEND ALMOST LIKE THE SISTER I NEVER HAD. TRACY AND I FIND IT VERY EASY TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING WITH HER AND WE BOTH RELATE TO HER ON MANY DIFFERENT LEVELS. SHE HAS BEEN A GREAT ADDITION TO OUR FAMILY AS WELL AS HER SISTER TERRY WHO WE ARE JUST GETTING TO KNOW AS WELL WITH OTHER MEMBERS OF THE CHURCH.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Friday, June 26, 2009
HUGE AND HOT.....YOU GO JOAN
THOSE WHO KNOW ME PRETTY MUCH KNOW IHAVE BEEN A BIG PERSON MOST OF MY LIFE BUT A FEW YEARS IN MY EARLY 30'S WHEN I WAS FIT. AS LIFE GOES ON YOU MEET PEOPLE WHO HAVE WENT THRTEW THE SAME LIFE AND LIFESTYLE AND THE THINGS THAT GO ALONG WITH IT.
I RECENTLY HAVE MET A LADY WHO IS THE AUTHOR OF A BOOK......OMG SHE IS HUGE....SINCE TALKING TO HER I HAVE FOUND SHE IS ONE AMAZING PERSON AND I ENJOY TEH TIMES WE CHAT. MY WIFE TRACY HAS ALSO BECOME FRIENDS WITH HER. MAYBE SOMEDAY SOON WE WILL MEET IN PERSON AND BECOME REAL FRIENDS.
AFTER CHATTING, REDING, AND WATCHING HER YOU TUBE CHNNEL I GET SO OUTRAGED THAT THERE ARE SO CALLED ADULTS THAT STILL MAKE FUN OF ONE BECAUSE THEY ARE LARGER...WTF I DID SAY ADULTS....HMMMM......JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE IS LARGE ON THE OUTSIDE DONT MEANTHEY DONT HAVE FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS ON THE IN SIDE JUST LIKE THE ONE MAKING FUN OF THE PERSON. EVEN THOUGHT SOME LARGE PEOIPLE SAY OH IT DONT BOTHER ME I HAVE PUT UP WITH IT MY WHOLE LIFE......SUBCONSCIENCELY IT DOES....IT IS ALWAYS IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND AND WILL HINDER YOU FROM TIMES TO TIME. BUT WHAT PEOPLE DONT REALIZE WHAT COMES AROUND GOES AROUND. MANY OF THE PEOPLE THAT USED TO MAKE FUN OF ME GROWING UP...DAMMMMMM THEIR ASS IS BIGGER THAN MINE NOW....LMAOOOOOOOOOO.....OK THAT INT REALLY FUNNY.......WE JUST A FEW IT IS.....IF I JUST DIDNT HAVE RESPECT FOR MYSELF I WOULD BRING IT UP TO THEM NOW.....BUT I GET MY FULLFILLMENT LOOKING AT THEIR PICS OF TODAY AND REMEMBERING WHAT THEY USED TO LOOK LIKE. OH AINT LIFE GRAND.......
SO IF YA AINT GOT A NICE THING TO SAY KEEP Y DAM MOUTH SHUT.......
HEY WHY SHOULD A MAN SETTLE FOR A SKINNY ASS SPARE RIB WHEN HE CAN HAVE A NICE JUICY RUMP ROAST.......
THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK
FARON
I RECENTLY HAVE MET A LADY WHO IS THE AUTHOR OF A BOOK......OMG SHE IS HUGE....SINCE TALKING TO HER I HAVE FOUND SHE IS ONE AMAZING PERSON AND I ENJOY TEH TIMES WE CHAT. MY WIFE TRACY HAS ALSO BECOME FRIENDS WITH HER. MAYBE SOMEDAY SOON WE WILL MEET IN PERSON AND BECOME REAL FRIENDS.
AFTER CHATTING, REDING, AND WATCHING HER YOU TUBE CHNNEL I GET SO OUTRAGED THAT THERE ARE SO CALLED ADULTS THAT STILL MAKE FUN OF ONE BECAUSE THEY ARE LARGER...WTF I DID SAY ADULTS....HMMMM......JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE IS LARGE ON THE OUTSIDE DONT MEANTHEY DONT HAVE FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS ON THE IN SIDE JUST LIKE THE ONE MAKING FUN OF THE PERSON. EVEN THOUGHT SOME LARGE PEOIPLE SAY OH IT DONT BOTHER ME I HAVE PUT UP WITH IT MY WHOLE LIFE......SUBCONSCIENCELY IT DOES....IT IS ALWAYS IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND AND WILL HINDER YOU FROM TIMES TO TIME. BUT WHAT PEOPLE DONT REALIZE WHAT COMES AROUND GOES AROUND. MANY OF THE PEOPLE THAT USED TO MAKE FUN OF ME GROWING UP...DAMMMMMM THEIR ASS IS BIGGER THAN MINE NOW....LMAOOOOOOOOOO.....OK THAT INT REALLY FUNNY.......WE JUST A FEW IT IS.....IF I JUST DIDNT HAVE RESPECT FOR MYSELF I WOULD BRING IT UP TO THEM NOW.....BUT I GET MY FULLFILLMENT LOOKING AT THEIR PICS OF TODAY AND REMEMBERING WHAT THEY USED TO LOOK LIKE. OH AINT LIFE GRAND.......
SO IF YA AINT GOT A NICE THING TO SAY KEEP Y DAM MOUTH SHUT.......
HEY WHY SHOULD A MAN SETTLE FOR A SKINNY ASS SPARE RIB WHEN HE CAN HAVE A NICE JUICY RUMP ROAST.......
THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK
FARON
Friday, May 1, 2009
WOW HOW CAN I SAY "I AM SORRY"
WOW I HAVE RECENTLY FOUND A DEAR FRIEND FROM MANY YEARS AGO WHO I WORKED WITH WHILE I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL. I AM AT A LOSS FOR WORD OF THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSED HER AND HER KIDS FOR NOT OPENING UP TO HER ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS HER THEN BOY FRIEND WAS DOING AND SAYING. SHE WENT THREW SOME REAL BAD SHIT WITH HIM AND IS LUCKY TO COME OUT OF IT. THEN I WAS A YOUNG AND DUMB TEEN AGER WHO WAS AFRAID OF MY OWN SHADOW, MUCH LESS GET MIXED UP IN A ??????LOVE TRIANGLE?????????BUT SHE DIDNT DESERVE TO GO THREW WHAT SHE LATER DID WITH HIM. HEY SHE DID HAVE 2 WONDERFUL KIDS WITH HIM WHO SHE WOULDNT HAVE HAD IF I HAD SPOKE UP.
WOW BOTH OUR LIVES HAVE BEEN SOMEWHAT CRAZY, AND WOULD WE BE THE PEOPLE WE ARE TODAY NOT INDURED WHAT WE BOTH HAVE IN THE PAST 20 YEARS? I VERY MUCH DOUBT IT.
AFTER RECONNECTING THIS WEEK IT WAS NICE TO HEAR I WASNT THE ONLY ONE THAT HAD MEEN TRYING TO FIND THE OTHER ONE. FOR ALONG TIME I HAD BEEN GETTING EMAILS FROM MYLIFE.COM SAYING SOMEONE WAS LOOKING FOR ME, BUT I DIDNT THINK MUCH OF IT. TILL 3 DAYS AGO I WAS WATCHING TV AND SAW SOMEONE WITH HER EX-HUSBANDS NAME IN THE CREDITS AND GOT TO THINKING ABOUT HER AND IT HIT ME. THE 45 YR OLD FROM MILTON HIGH SCHOOL WAS HER. I HAD TO GET THE CREDIT CARD OUT AND PAY THE FEE TO DO A SEARCH ON HER NAME. POW THERE WAS EVERY ADDRESS SHE HAD EVER HAD AND HER PHONE NUMBERS. IT ALSO GAVE ME HER MYSPACE PAGE AND I HAD TO ADD HER. I THINK SHE WAS SHOCKED TO GET A FRIENDS REQUEST FROM ME.
IT HAS BEEN AWESOME TALKING TO HER ON THE COMPUTER AND ON THE PHONE ABOUT OLD TIMES AND I WHEN HEART WRENCHING FOR WHAT SHE HAD TO GO THREW.
HOW DOES ONE MAKE UP FOR ABOUT 10 YEARS OF MENTAL ABUSE SHE WENT THREW WHILE MARRIED TO HIM?
I MEAN DAMN I WAS TRUELY AFRAID FOR MY LIFE OF HIM. I WAS WAKEN MANY NIGHTS AND TOLD IF HE EVER CAUGHT OR FOUND OUT I WAS AT THEIR HOUSE WHEN HE WAS AT WORK HE WOULD KILL ME, AND I TRUELY THINK HE WOULD HAVE AFTER HEARING THE STUPID SHIT HE DONE IN THE YEARS FOLLOWING.
I MEAN DAMN HE WAS MY LAND LORD AND I LIVED BESIDE THEM. HE PARKED HIS TRUCK 10 FEET FROM MY FRONT DOOR. I JUST UP AND MOVED AND KEPT QUIET AND PARTED WAYS. MANY MANY TIMES I WOULD THINK HOW SHE WAS ANF TRIED FINDING THEM TO ONLY BE A WEEK OR TWO LATE WHEN THEY HAD MOVED.
IN 2002 WHILE WORKING AT C.A.M.C. GENERAL I GOT THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE. I WAS TALKING TO ANOTHER PERSON WHO WAS A PATIENT THAT WE HAD QWORKED WITH AND BOBBY ASKED HAD I TALKED TO TAMMY IN THE PAST I SAID NO.....OMFG... THE NEXT CURTAIN OVER I HEAR A VOICE ....HEY YOU TALKING ABOUT ME......I WAS LIKE WTF......SO I GO OVER AND OPEN THE CURTAIN........OMFG I BE DAMNED WHO WAS LAYING THERE.....MY OLD LAND LORD HER EX-HUSBAND.....I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY....BUT HI HOW YOU DOING....LOL.....THEY HAD GOTTEN DIVORCED AND HE HAD DONE REMARRIED SOME LADY HE MET IN A NUT HOUSE I LATTER FOUND OUT....THE CRAZY SOB HAD TRIED COMMITTING SUICIDE MANY TIME AND HE HAD SHOT HISSELF AND ENDED UP BEING PARALIZED. THE COWARDLY SOB.....YA AS YOU CAN TELL I STILL HATED HIM..... :-) WE GOT TO END THAT STORY.....LMAO
ANYWAYS.......NOW TO THIS WEEK ME AND TAMMY ARE FRIENDS AGAIN AND BOTH ARE HAPPY ABOUT IT.....CANT WATE TO SEE THE LIL MUNCHKIN....LMAO SHE IS ONLY 5.1....LMAO YUP SHE IS A MUNCHKIN.......
HEY TAMMY...MAYO, LETCHUP, PICKLE , ONION, TOMATO, LETTUCE.....MUSTARD ON THE MEAT.....LMAO I STILL REMEMBER.
UNTILL WE MEET YA BETTER KEEP IN TOUCH DAMMIT DONT MAKE ME GO J.R. ON YOU IF YOU DONT........LMAO THAT WAS HER EX HUBBYS NAME
SORRY THAT WAS A BAD JOKE
FARON
WOW BOTH OUR LIVES HAVE BEEN SOMEWHAT CRAZY, AND WOULD WE BE THE PEOPLE WE ARE TODAY NOT INDURED WHAT WE BOTH HAVE IN THE PAST 20 YEARS? I VERY MUCH DOUBT IT.
AFTER RECONNECTING THIS WEEK IT WAS NICE TO HEAR I WASNT THE ONLY ONE THAT HAD MEEN TRYING TO FIND THE OTHER ONE. FOR ALONG TIME I HAD BEEN GETTING EMAILS FROM MYLIFE.COM SAYING SOMEONE WAS LOOKING FOR ME, BUT I DIDNT THINK MUCH OF IT. TILL 3 DAYS AGO I WAS WATCHING TV AND SAW SOMEONE WITH HER EX-HUSBANDS NAME IN THE CREDITS AND GOT TO THINKING ABOUT HER AND IT HIT ME. THE 45 YR OLD FROM MILTON HIGH SCHOOL WAS HER. I HAD TO GET THE CREDIT CARD OUT AND PAY THE FEE TO DO A SEARCH ON HER NAME. POW THERE WAS EVERY ADDRESS SHE HAD EVER HAD AND HER PHONE NUMBERS. IT ALSO GAVE ME HER MYSPACE PAGE AND I HAD TO ADD HER. I THINK SHE WAS SHOCKED TO GET A FRIENDS REQUEST FROM ME.
IT HAS BEEN AWESOME TALKING TO HER ON THE COMPUTER AND ON THE PHONE ABOUT OLD TIMES AND I WHEN HEART WRENCHING FOR WHAT SHE HAD TO GO THREW.
HOW DOES ONE MAKE UP FOR ABOUT 10 YEARS OF MENTAL ABUSE SHE WENT THREW WHILE MARRIED TO HIM?
I MEAN DAMN I WAS TRUELY AFRAID FOR MY LIFE OF HIM. I WAS WAKEN MANY NIGHTS AND TOLD IF HE EVER CAUGHT OR FOUND OUT I WAS AT THEIR HOUSE WHEN HE WAS AT WORK HE WOULD KILL ME, AND I TRUELY THINK HE WOULD HAVE AFTER HEARING THE STUPID SHIT HE DONE IN THE YEARS FOLLOWING.
I MEAN DAMN HE WAS MY LAND LORD AND I LIVED BESIDE THEM. HE PARKED HIS TRUCK 10 FEET FROM MY FRONT DOOR. I JUST UP AND MOVED AND KEPT QUIET AND PARTED WAYS. MANY MANY TIMES I WOULD THINK HOW SHE WAS ANF TRIED FINDING THEM TO ONLY BE A WEEK OR TWO LATE WHEN THEY HAD MOVED.
IN 2002 WHILE WORKING AT C.A.M.C. GENERAL I GOT THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE. I WAS TALKING TO ANOTHER PERSON WHO WAS A PATIENT THAT WE HAD QWORKED WITH AND BOBBY ASKED HAD I TALKED TO TAMMY IN THE PAST I SAID NO.....OMFG... THE NEXT CURTAIN OVER I HEAR A VOICE ....HEY YOU TALKING ABOUT ME......I WAS LIKE WTF......SO I GO OVER AND OPEN THE CURTAIN........OMFG I BE DAMNED WHO WAS LAYING THERE.....MY OLD LAND LORD HER EX-HUSBAND.....I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY....BUT HI HOW YOU DOING....LOL.....THEY HAD GOTTEN DIVORCED AND HE HAD DONE REMARRIED SOME LADY HE MET IN A NUT HOUSE I LATTER FOUND OUT....THE CRAZY SOB HAD TRIED COMMITTING SUICIDE MANY TIME AND HE HAD SHOT HISSELF AND ENDED UP BEING PARALIZED. THE COWARDLY SOB.....YA AS YOU CAN TELL I STILL HATED HIM..... :-) WE GOT TO END THAT STORY.....LMAO
ANYWAYS.......NOW TO THIS WEEK ME AND TAMMY ARE FRIENDS AGAIN AND BOTH ARE HAPPY ABOUT IT.....CANT WATE TO SEE THE LIL MUNCHKIN....LMAO SHE IS ONLY 5.1....LMAO YUP SHE IS A MUNCHKIN.......
HEY TAMMY...MAYO, LETCHUP, PICKLE , ONION, TOMATO, LETTUCE.....MUSTARD ON THE MEAT.....LMAO I STILL REMEMBER.
UNTILL WE MEET YA BETTER KEEP IN TOUCH DAMMIT DONT MAKE ME GO J.R. ON YOU IF YOU DONT........LMAO THAT WAS HER EX HUBBYS NAME
SORRY THAT WAS A BAD JOKE
FARON
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
sunshine :<)
WOW AFTER READING A FRIENDS BLOG, IT KINDA MAKES ME SAD THAT WE DIDNT OPEN UP EARLIER IN LIFE. EVEN THOUGH WE WERE FROM MUCH DIFFERENT BACKGROUNDS AND UP BRINGINGS WE HAD AND STILL HAVE ALOT IN COMMON WITH OUR EMOTIONS AND CHILDHOOD. IT ACTUALLY MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER THAT I AM NOT ALONE IN WHAT I FEEL. IS IT WRONG OT NOT, I REALLY DONT KNOW. TO ME I DONT THINK SO.
MY MOMS PARENTS WERE ALWAYS FULL OF DECIEPT AND LIES SO AT AN EARLY AGE I LEARNED TURN AND KEEP MY FEELING HIDDEN SO I WOULDNT GET HURT FROM ALL THE LIES, DECIEPT, AND MENTAL ABUSE. WHEN MY MOM LOST HER MOM IN 1997 I HURT FOR MY MOM BUT I WASNT A BIT HURT OF HER PASSING PERSONALY BECAUSE OF MY CHILDHOOD, IN THE UPSIDE OF IT ALL I GOT TO SEE FAMILY I HAD NOT SEEN IN YEARS. MY MOMS MOM MAKES CHARLES MANSON MORE PURE THAN GOD TO ME. I REAALLY CANT THINK OF A GOOD MEMORY OF HER OTHER THAN GETTING TO GO TO TENNESSEE AND VIRGINIA BEACH WITH HER TO SEE MY COUSINS.
NOW MY GRANDPARENTS ON MY DADS SIDE WERE THE MOST IMPRESSIVE MODEL GRANDPARENTS ANYONE WOULD EVER WANT. MY GRANDPA DIED IN 1977 AND GRANDMA DIED IN 1995 I THINK OR 1996?BUT THE MEMORIES I HAVE WITH THEM ARE NOTHING BUT GOOD. I AM STILL SOMEWHAT DEVESTATED AT THEIR PASSING STILL TODAY.
SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT MY GRANDMA SCARBERRY I CAN STILL SEE HER SILVER HAIR AND HER EVER SO WARMING SMILE AND HEAR HER SAYING TO EVERYONE WHO LEFT HER HOUSE..."HEY YOU AINT TO OLD TO GIVE ME A KISS", I ALWAYS FELT AND ASTILL FEEL THE LOVE SHE HAD FOR EVERYONE IN HER FAMILY. SHE WAS TRUELY THE STRONGEST PERSON I THINK I WILL EVER KNOW. SHE BEAT MULTIPLE HEART ATTACKS, BREAST CANCER, LIVER CANCER HEART BYPASS SURGERY, AND OTHER ILLNESSES AND WORKED HER HUGE GARDEN TILL THE DAY SHE DIED WHEN SHE WAS ALMOST 90 YEARS OLD.
AFTER HER DEATH THE SCARBERRY FAMILY SOMEWHAT FELL APART AND JUST NO ONE HARDLY GETS ALONG ANYMORE, BECAUSE OF BACKSTABBING AND I DONE THIS FOR MOMMY AND YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS FOR MOMMY...BLAH BLAH BLAH
MY DAD WAS ONE OF 14 KIDS AND ALL OF THEM HAVE 3 OR 4 KIDS AND SOME EVEN MORE AND THEN THE GRANDKIDS HAVE KIDS PROBABLY OVER 300 PEOPLE IN SOUTH CHARLESTON AREA IN MY FAMILY AND I ONLY TALK TO ABOUT 25 OF THEM.
I DONT LIKE THE DDRAMA IN THE FAMILY ON EITHER SIDE OF MY FAMILY SO AFTER MY FIRST DIVORCE IN 1995 I PRETTY MUCH MOVED OUT OF STATE AND LIVED MY OWN LIFE. THOUGH I HAVE MOVED BACK A TIME OR TWO IT DONT LAST LONG AND I HAVE TO MOVE AGAIN. I JUST DONT FEEL A CONECTION WITH THEM ANYMORE.
THANK YOU SUNSHINE FOR MAKING ME FEEL GOOD IN MY HEART AGAIN YOU TRULLY BRIGHTEN MY DAY AND I CHERISH THE FRIENDSHIP WE HAVE NOW
THANK YOU SO MUCH
FARON
MY MOMS PARENTS WERE ALWAYS FULL OF DECIEPT AND LIES SO AT AN EARLY AGE I LEARNED TURN AND KEEP MY FEELING HIDDEN SO I WOULDNT GET HURT FROM ALL THE LIES, DECIEPT, AND MENTAL ABUSE. WHEN MY MOM LOST HER MOM IN 1997 I HURT FOR MY MOM BUT I WASNT A BIT HURT OF HER PASSING PERSONALY BECAUSE OF MY CHILDHOOD, IN THE UPSIDE OF IT ALL I GOT TO SEE FAMILY I HAD NOT SEEN IN YEARS. MY MOMS MOM MAKES CHARLES MANSON MORE PURE THAN GOD TO ME. I REAALLY CANT THINK OF A GOOD MEMORY OF HER OTHER THAN GETTING TO GO TO TENNESSEE AND VIRGINIA BEACH WITH HER TO SEE MY COUSINS.
NOW MY GRANDPARENTS ON MY DADS SIDE WERE THE MOST IMPRESSIVE MODEL GRANDPARENTS ANYONE WOULD EVER WANT. MY GRANDPA DIED IN 1977 AND GRANDMA DIED IN 1995 I THINK OR 1996?BUT THE MEMORIES I HAVE WITH THEM ARE NOTHING BUT GOOD. I AM STILL SOMEWHAT DEVESTATED AT THEIR PASSING STILL TODAY.
SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT MY GRANDMA SCARBERRY I CAN STILL SEE HER SILVER HAIR AND HER EVER SO WARMING SMILE AND HEAR HER SAYING TO EVERYONE WHO LEFT HER HOUSE..."HEY YOU AINT TO OLD TO GIVE ME A KISS", I ALWAYS FELT AND ASTILL FEEL THE LOVE SHE HAD FOR EVERYONE IN HER FAMILY. SHE WAS TRUELY THE STRONGEST PERSON I THINK I WILL EVER KNOW. SHE BEAT MULTIPLE HEART ATTACKS, BREAST CANCER, LIVER CANCER HEART BYPASS SURGERY, AND OTHER ILLNESSES AND WORKED HER HUGE GARDEN TILL THE DAY SHE DIED WHEN SHE WAS ALMOST 90 YEARS OLD.
AFTER HER DEATH THE SCARBERRY FAMILY SOMEWHAT FELL APART AND JUST NO ONE HARDLY GETS ALONG ANYMORE, BECAUSE OF BACKSTABBING AND I DONE THIS FOR MOMMY AND YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS FOR MOMMY...BLAH BLAH BLAH
MY DAD WAS ONE OF 14 KIDS AND ALL OF THEM HAVE 3 OR 4 KIDS AND SOME EVEN MORE AND THEN THE GRANDKIDS HAVE KIDS PROBABLY OVER 300 PEOPLE IN SOUTH CHARLESTON AREA IN MY FAMILY AND I ONLY TALK TO ABOUT 25 OF THEM.
I DONT LIKE THE DDRAMA IN THE FAMILY ON EITHER SIDE OF MY FAMILY SO AFTER MY FIRST DIVORCE IN 1995 I PRETTY MUCH MOVED OUT OF STATE AND LIVED MY OWN LIFE. THOUGH I HAVE MOVED BACK A TIME OR TWO IT DONT LAST LONG AND I HAVE TO MOVE AGAIN. I JUST DONT FEEL A CONECTION WITH THEM ANYMORE.
THANK YOU SUNSHINE FOR MAKING ME FEEL GOOD IN MY HEART AGAIN YOU TRULLY BRIGHTEN MY DAY AND I CHERISH THE FRIENDSHIP WE HAVE NOW
THANK YOU SO MUCH
FARON
its been awhile
ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I HAD TO VENT BUT DAM IT IS TIME AGAIN...LMAO....WELL OUT OF THE LAST 10 DAYS I HAVE SAW A DR 7 OF THEM. NOTHING TO SERIOUS JUST A BUNCHA MUMBO BS. I AM SICK OF DRS, SICK OF MEDICINE MAKING ME FEEL LIKE A ZOMBIE, AND JUST WANT MY ENERGY BACK. SINCE JAN 1ST I AM ON MY 10TH ROUND OF ANTIBIOTICS AND THEY ARE EATING MY STOMACH UP, THOUGHT THERE IS A BRITE SIDE I AM LOSING WEIGHT FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO KEEP FOOD DOWN. I HAVE LOST 15 POUNDS IN LAST 4 WEEKS, THOUGH I AM SLEEPING 12 TO 16 HOURS A DAY AND I AM ALSO TIRED OF THE BED.
I AM SICK OF THIS DAM RAIN AND BEING COOPED UP IN THIS DAM HOUSE. I HATE WHERE I AM LIVING AND WANT TO MOVE SOUTH TO TENN, TX, OR ANYWHERE AROUND THE GULF OR THE CAROLINAS. I SICK OF THE MOUNTAINS, I NEED SAND AND WATER.
APRIL 29TH WILL BE A YEAR THAT I HAVENT BEEN ABLEN TO WORK. I CANT NOT STAND NOT WORKING, BUT I DO LOVE THE XTRA TIME WITH MY KIDS. I STILL NEED MY TIME FOR MY OWN PIECE OF MIND.
I NEED TO BE AROUND PEOPLE AND FRIENDS WHO I LIKE AND WANT TO BE AROUND. BESIDES MY FAMILY PEOPLE IN WV SUCK ROYAL ASS. THEY ARE ONLY FRIENDS WITH YOU TO GET SOMETHING FROM YOU, IF YOU DONT HAVE WHAT THEY WANT THEY ARE MOOCHING FROM SOMEONE ELSE.
I WANT TO LIVE BACK IN THE COUNTRY I CANT STAND THIS CITY LIFE MUCH LONGER, I LIKE TO LIVE SECLUDED , I MEAN DAM IF I WANT TO TAKE A PIZZ OFF THE FROM PORCH I WANT TO PIZZ OFF MY FRONT PORCH, I HAVE NEVER BEEN ONE TO BE ABLE LIVE LIVE WITH RULES. DAMMIT I NEED MY OWN SPACE TO DO AS I PLEASE. I WANT TO LIVE THE GRIZZLY ADAMS LIFE, I HATE NEIGHBORS.
I MISS MY AMISH FRIENDS IN WISCONSIN, I LOVE THERE SIMPLE WAY OF LIFE.
WOW AM I IN A PIZZED OFF MOOD OR WHAT>>>>HMMMMMM
ON THE LIGHTER SIDE I DO CHERISH THE FRIENDSHIPS THAT ARE BLOSSEMING FROM OLD FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL ON FACEBOOK. SOMEDAYS THEY ARE ALL THAT HELP ME THREW THESE SHITTY DAYS. THANK YOU YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE....I LOVE YA AS A FRIEND OR THE SISTER I NEVER HAD.....YA BETTER KEEP IN TOUCH DAMMIT.
WELL TYIME FOR MY MEDS AND ANOTHER NAP, I GUESS LIFE IS GOOPD AS LONG AS I WAKE UP ON THIS SIDE OF THE DIRT....LMAO
FARON
I AM SICK OF THIS DAM RAIN AND BEING COOPED UP IN THIS DAM HOUSE. I HATE WHERE I AM LIVING AND WANT TO MOVE SOUTH TO TENN, TX, OR ANYWHERE AROUND THE GULF OR THE CAROLINAS. I SICK OF THE MOUNTAINS, I NEED SAND AND WATER.
APRIL 29TH WILL BE A YEAR THAT I HAVENT BEEN ABLEN TO WORK. I CANT NOT STAND NOT WORKING, BUT I DO LOVE THE XTRA TIME WITH MY KIDS. I STILL NEED MY TIME FOR MY OWN PIECE OF MIND.
I NEED TO BE AROUND PEOPLE AND FRIENDS WHO I LIKE AND WANT TO BE AROUND. BESIDES MY FAMILY PEOPLE IN WV SUCK ROYAL ASS. THEY ARE ONLY FRIENDS WITH YOU TO GET SOMETHING FROM YOU, IF YOU DONT HAVE WHAT THEY WANT THEY ARE MOOCHING FROM SOMEONE ELSE.
I WANT TO LIVE BACK IN THE COUNTRY I CANT STAND THIS CITY LIFE MUCH LONGER, I LIKE TO LIVE SECLUDED , I MEAN DAM IF I WANT TO TAKE A PIZZ OFF THE FROM PORCH I WANT TO PIZZ OFF MY FRONT PORCH, I HAVE NEVER BEEN ONE TO BE ABLE LIVE LIVE WITH RULES. DAMMIT I NEED MY OWN SPACE TO DO AS I PLEASE. I WANT TO LIVE THE GRIZZLY ADAMS LIFE, I HATE NEIGHBORS.
I MISS MY AMISH FRIENDS IN WISCONSIN, I LOVE THERE SIMPLE WAY OF LIFE.
WOW AM I IN A PIZZED OFF MOOD OR WHAT>>>>HMMMMMM
ON THE LIGHTER SIDE I DO CHERISH THE FRIENDSHIPS THAT ARE BLOSSEMING FROM OLD FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL ON FACEBOOK. SOMEDAYS THEY ARE ALL THAT HELP ME THREW THESE SHITTY DAYS. THANK YOU YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE....I LOVE YA AS A FRIEND OR THE SISTER I NEVER HAD.....YA BETTER KEEP IN TOUCH DAMMIT.
WELL TYIME FOR MY MEDS AND ANOTHER NAP, I GUESS LIFE IS GOOPD AS LONG AS I WAKE UP ON THIS SIDE OF THE DIRT....LMAO
FARON
Saturday, February 28, 2009
WOULD I DO IT AGAIN? NO I DONT THINK SO
I KNOW EVERY ONE THINK ABOUT THEIR LIFE AND WONDER WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO DO THINGS OVER AND HAVE DIFFERNT THINGS HAPPEN IN THEIR LIFE.HIGH SCHOOL IS ONE OF THEM. I REALLY DONT THINK I WOULD, THOUGH I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO BE FRIENDS IN SCHOOL WITH SOME I AM FRIENDS WITH NOW. THAT IS JUST ONE ASPECT OF IT ALL. MY TIME IN SCHOOL AND GROWING UP WAS NOT A PLEASANT TIME FOR ME PERIOD. I NEVER FELT HAPPY OR LIKE I EVEN FIT IN WITH NO ONE.IT WASNT UNTIL ABOUT 10 YEARS AFTER HIGH SCHOOL THAT I WAS EVER COMFORTABLE AND TRUELY FOUND MYSELF AND KNEW WHAT I WANTED IN LIFE IN GENERAL. IAM COMFORTABLE WITH WHO I AM IN LIFE TODAY AND I THINK WHAT I HAD ENDURED THROUGH OUT LIFE MADE ME WHO I AM. YES I WOULD LIKE MORE MONEY AND BE MORE COMFORTABLE IN THAT ASPECT, BUT IN LIFE IN GENERAL I AM RICH IN LOVE AND WHO COULD EVER WANT ANY MORE THAN THAT. YES I WISH MY HEALTH WAS ALOT BETTER BUT THEN AGAIN THAT IS A LONG WORK IN PROGRESS. SOME DAMAGE IS DONE SOME CAN BE REPAIRED OR CURED. SOME I WILL JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH.IT WASNT UNTILL I HIT ROCK BOTTOM THAT I WAS EVEN COMFORTABLE BEING A PART OF MY OWN FAMILY. I HAVE ALWAYS FEALT LIKE I WAS THE "BLACKSHEEP" OF THE FAMILY AND EVERYONE ALWAYS LOOKED DOWN ON ME.ONCE I FOUND MYSELF I COME TO TERMS THAT THEY COULD EXCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM OR KISS MY ASS. I ALSO FIGURED THERE VAIN AND SHALLOW THOUGHTS IS NO LOSS TO ME. IT IS THEIR LOSS NOT TO HAVE ME IN THEIR LIFE.IT WAS SOON AFTER MY FATHER WHO WAS MY BEST FRIEND AND THE ULTIMATE HERO DIED IN AUGUST OF 1997 THAT I REALIZED LIFE WAS TO SHORT NOT TO BE HAPPY AND ENJOY IT. I AM STILL LEARNING TO DEAL WITH THE LOSS AND THINK I WILL NEVER GET OVER IT I JUST LEARN TO COPE WITH IT, AND BE THE PERSON ID HOPE HE WANTED ME TO BE. I THINK I AM THERE AND THAT HE'D BE HAPPY WITH MY LIFE TODAY.I AM STARTING TO BUILD WHAT I WOULD SAY IS A GREAT FOUNDATION TO GREAT FRIENDSHIPS WITH A FEW FROM SCHOOL NOW. TRUE FRIEND WAS SOMETHING I NEVER HAD MUCH OF GROWING UP. SO I HOPE THEY DEVELOPE AND GROW INTO SOMETHING WE CAN CHERISH FOREVER. I THINK A FRIEND YOU CAN FINED EVERYDAY, BUT A TRUE FRIEND IS ONCE IN A LIFE TIME. ONCE THAT IS GONE YOU HAVE NOTHING
.UNTIL THE NEXT TIME
PEACE OUTFARON
BACK OFF
HERE LATELY A FEW PEOPLE HAVE BEEN PUTTING THEIR DAM NOSE WHEN IT DONT BELONG AND I AM DONE WITH IT. WHAY MY WIFE AND I DO IN OUR HOUSE ISNT NONE OF YOUR DAM BUSSINESS. GET OVER IT OR DONT READ WHAT I POST ON THE WEB. MOST WHO KNOW ME KNOW I AM A VERY OUTSPOKEN PERSON AND WILL SAY WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. SO BE IT. I AM WHO I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE.
FACEBOOK HAS BLESSED ME WITH A FEW OLD FRIENDS SOME I HAD NEVER REALLY TALKED TO IN SCHOOL SOME FOR DIFFERENT REASON. SOME BEAUSE I WAS TO SHY AND AFRAID OF REJECTION AND SOME I JUST DIDNT CARE FOR, BUT NOW WE ALL HAVE CHANGED THREW THE YEARS AND I FEEL BLESSED TO HAVE THEM AS FRIENDS NOW.
IT KILLS ME THAT A FEW THINK A MAN CAN'T HAVE A FEMALE FRIEND WITHOUT THRYING TO SCREW THEM. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD BOTH MALE AND FEMALE FRIENDS AND ALWAYS WILL. SO IF MY WIFE TRUSTS ME AND FELLS ALSO CONFORTABLE WITH IT. STFU, AND BACK OFF.
OK I AM DONE VENTING FOR THE FIRST TIME
WOW THIS IS AN AMAZING DAY
SMILE IT IS CONTAGIOUS
PEACE OUT
FARON
FACEBOOK HAS BLESSED ME WITH A FEW OLD FRIENDS SOME I HAD NEVER REALLY TALKED TO IN SCHOOL SOME FOR DIFFERENT REASON. SOME BEAUSE I WAS TO SHY AND AFRAID OF REJECTION AND SOME I JUST DIDNT CARE FOR, BUT NOW WE ALL HAVE CHANGED THREW THE YEARS AND I FEEL BLESSED TO HAVE THEM AS FRIENDS NOW.
IT KILLS ME THAT A FEW THINK A MAN CAN'T HAVE A FEMALE FRIEND WITHOUT THRYING TO SCREW THEM. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD BOTH MALE AND FEMALE FRIENDS AND ALWAYS WILL. SO IF MY WIFE TRUSTS ME AND FELLS ALSO CONFORTABLE WITH IT. STFU, AND BACK OFF.
OK I AM DONE VENTING FOR THE FIRST TIME
WOW THIS IS AN AMAZING DAY
SMILE IT IS CONTAGIOUS
PEACE OUT
FARON
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