WOW HOW CAN I SAY "I AM SORRY"

WOW I HAVE RECENTLY FOUND A DEAR FRIEND FROM MANY YEARS AGO WHO I WORKED WITH WHILE I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL. I AM AT A LOSS FOR WORD OF THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSED HER AND HER KIDS FOR NOT OPENING UP TO HER ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS HER THEN BOY FRIEND WAS DOING AND SAYING. SHE WENT THREW SOME REAL BAD SHIT WITH HIM AND IS LUCKY TO COME OUT OF IT. THEN I WAS A YOUNG AND DUMB TEEN AGER WHO WAS AFRAID OF MY OWN SHADOW, MUCH LESS GET MIXED UP IN A ??????LOVE TRIANGLE?????????BUT SHE DIDNT DESERVE TO GO THREW WHAT SHE LATER DID WITH HIM. HEY SHE DID HAVE 2 WONDERFUL KIDS WITH HIM WHO SHE WOULDNT HAVE HAD IF I HAD SPOKE UP.
WOW BOTH OUR LIVES HAVE BEEN SOMEWHAT CRAZY, AND WOULD WE BE THE PEOPLE WE ARE TODAY NOT INDURED WHAT WE BOTH HAVE IN THE PAST 20 YEARS? I VERY MUCH DOUBT IT.
AFTER RECONNECTING THIS WEEK IT WAS NICE TO HEAR I WASNT THE ONLY ONE THAT HAD MEEN TRYING TO FIND THE OTHER ONE. FOR ALONG TIME I HAD BEEN GETTING EMAILS FROM MYLIFE.COM SAYING SOMEONE WAS LOOKING FOR ME, BUT I DIDNT THINK MUCH OF IT. TILL 3 DAYS AGO I WAS WATCHING TV AND SAW SOMEONE WITH HER EX-HUSBANDS NAME IN THE CREDITS AND GOT TO THINKING ABOUT HER AND IT HIT ME. THE 45 YR OLD FROM MILTON HIGH SCHOOL WAS HER. I HAD TO GET THE CREDIT CARD OUT AND PAY THE FEE TO DO A SEARCH ON HER NAME. POW THERE WAS EVERY ADDRESS SHE HAD EVER HAD AND HER PHONE NUMBERS. IT ALSO GAVE ME HER MYSPACE PAGE AND I HAD TO ADD HER. I THINK SHE WAS SHOCKED TO GET A FRIENDS REQUEST FROM ME.
IT HAS BEEN AWESOME TALKING TO HER ON THE COMPUTER AND ON THE PHONE ABOUT OLD TIMES AND I WHEN HEART WRENCHING FOR WHAT SHE HAD TO GO THREW.
HOW DOES ONE MAKE UP FOR ABOUT 10 YEARS OF MENTAL ABUSE SHE WENT THREW WHILE MARRIED TO HIM?
I MEAN DAMN I WAS TRUELY AFRAID FOR MY LIFE OF HIM. I WAS WAKEN MANY NIGHTS AND TOLD IF HE EVER CAUGHT OR FOUND OUT I WAS AT THEIR HOUSE WHEN HE WAS AT WORK HE WOULD KILL ME, AND I TRUELY THINK HE WOULD HAVE AFTER HEARING THE STUPID SHIT HE DONE IN THE YEARS FOLLOWING.
I MEAN DAMN HE WAS MY LAND LORD AND I LIVED BESIDE THEM. HE PARKED HIS TRUCK 10 FEET FROM MY FRONT DOOR. I JUST UP AND MOVED AND KEPT QUIET AND PARTED WAYS. MANY MANY TIMES I WOULD THINK HOW SHE WAS ANF TRIED FINDING THEM TO ONLY BE A WEEK OR TWO LATE WHEN THEY HAD MOVED.
IN 2002 WHILE WORKING AT C.A.M.C. GENERAL I GOT THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE. I WAS TALKING TO ANOTHER PERSON WHO WAS A PATIENT THAT WE HAD QWORKED WITH AND BOBBY ASKED HAD I TALKED TO TAMMY IN THE PAST I SAID NO.....OMFG... THE NEXT CURTAIN OVER I HEAR A VOICE ....HEY YOU TALKING ABOUT ME......I WAS LIKE WTF......SO I GO OVER AND OPEN THE CURTAIN........OMFG I BE DAMNED WHO WAS LAYING THERE.....MY OLD LAND LORD HER EX-HUSBAND.....I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY....BUT HI HOW YOU DOING....LOL.....THEY HAD GOTTEN DIVORCED AND HE HAD DONE REMARRIED SOME LADY HE MET IN A NUT HOUSE I LATTER FOUND OUT....THE CRAZY SOB HAD TRIED COMMITTING SUICIDE MANY TIME AND HE HAD SHOT HISSELF AND ENDED UP BEING PARALIZED. THE COWARDLY SOB.....YA AS YOU CAN TELL I STILL HATED HIM..... :-) WE GOT TO END THAT STORY.....LMAO
ANYWAYS.......NOW TO THIS WEEK ME AND TAMMY ARE FRIENDS AGAIN AND BOTH ARE HAPPY ABOUT IT.....CANT WATE TO SEE THE LIL MUNCHKIN....LMAO SHE IS ONLY 5.1....LMAO YUP SHE IS A MUNCHKIN.......
HEY TAMMY...MAYO, LETCHUP, PICKLE , ONION, TOMATO, LETTUCE.....MUSTARD ON THE MEAT.....LMAO I STILL REMEMBER.
UNTILL WE MEET YA BETTER KEEP IN TOUCH DAMMIT DONT MAKE ME GO J.R. ON YOU IF YOU DONT........LMAO THAT WAS HER EX HUBBYS NAME
SORRY THAT WAS A BAD JOKE
FARON