WOULD I DO IT AGAIN? NO I DONT THINK SO

I KNOW EVERY ONE THINK ABOUT THEIR LIFE AND WONDER WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO DO THINGS OVER AND HAVE DIFFERNT THINGS HAPPEN IN THEIR LIFE.HIGH SCHOOL IS ONE OF THEM. I REALLY DONT THINK I WOULD, THOUGH I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO BE FRIENDS IN SCHOOL WITH SOME I AM FRIENDS WITH NOW. THAT IS JUST ONE ASPECT OF IT ALL. MY TIME IN SCHOOL AND GROWING UP WAS NOT A PLEASANT TIME FOR ME PERIOD. I NEVER FELT HAPPY OR LIKE I EVEN FIT IN WITH NO ONE.IT WASNT UNTIL ABOUT 10 YEARS AFTER HIGH SCHOOL THAT I WAS EVER COMFORTABLE AND TRUELY FOUND MYSELF AND KNEW WHAT I WANTED IN LIFE IN GENERAL. IAM COMFORTABLE WITH WHO I AM IN LIFE TODAY AND I THINK WHAT I HAD ENDURED THROUGH OUT LIFE MADE ME WHO I AM. YES I WOULD LIKE MORE MONEY AND BE MORE COMFORTABLE IN THAT ASPECT, BUT IN LIFE IN GENERAL I AM RICH IN LOVE AND WHO COULD EVER WANT ANY MORE THAN THAT. YES I WISH MY HEALTH WAS ALOT BETTER BUT THEN AGAIN THAT IS A LONG WORK IN PROGRESS. SOME DAMAGE IS DONE SOME CAN BE REPAIRED OR CURED. SOME I WILL JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH.IT WASNT UNTILL I HIT ROCK BOTTOM THAT I WAS EVEN COMFORTABLE BEING A PART OF MY OWN FAMILY. I HAVE ALWAYS FEALT LIKE I WAS THE "BLACKSHEEP" OF THE FAMILY AND EVERYONE ALWAYS LOOKED DOWN ON ME.ONCE I FOUND MYSELF I COME TO TERMS THAT THEY COULD EXCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM OR KISS MY ASS. I ALSO FIGURED THERE VAIN AND SHALLOW THOUGHTS IS NO LOSS TO ME. IT IS THEIR LOSS NOT TO HAVE ME IN THEIR LIFE.IT WAS SOON AFTER MY FATHER WHO WAS MY BEST FRIEND AND THE ULTIMATE HERO DIED IN AUGUST OF 1997 THAT I REALIZED LIFE WAS TO SHORT NOT TO BE HAPPY AND ENJOY IT. I AM STILL LEARNING TO DEAL WITH THE LOSS AND THINK I WILL NEVER GET OVER IT I JUST LEARN TO COPE WITH IT, AND BE THE PERSON ID HOPE HE WANTED ME TO BE. I THINK I AM THERE AND THAT HE'D BE HAPPY WITH MY LIFE TODAY.I AM STARTING TO BUILD WHAT I WOULD SAY IS A GREAT FOUNDATION TO GREAT FRIENDSHIPS WITH A FEW FROM SCHOOL NOW. TRUE FRIEND WAS SOMETHING I NEVER HAD MUCH OF GROWING UP. SO I HOPE THEY DEVELOPE AND GROW INTO SOMETHING WE CAN CHERISH FOREVER. I THINK A FRIEND YOU CAN FINED EVERYDAY, BUT A TRUE FRIEND IS ONCE IN A LIFE TIME. ONCE THAT IS GONE YOU HAVE NOTHING
.UNTIL THE NEXT TIME
PEACE OUTFARON