WOULD I DO IT AGAIN? NO I DONT THINK SO

I KNOW EVERY ONE THINK ABOUT THEIR LIFE AND WONDER WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO DO THINGS OVER AND HAVE DIFFERNT THINGS HAPPEN IN THEIR LIFE.HIGH SCHOOL IS ONE OF THEM. I REALLY DONT THINK I WOULD, THOUGH I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO BE FRIENDS IN SCHOOL WITH SOME I AM FRIENDS WITH NOW. THAT IS JUST ONE ASPECT OF IT ALL. MY TIME IN SCHOOL AND GROWING UP WAS NOT A PLEASANT TIME FOR ME PERIOD. I NEVER FELT HAPPY OR LIKE I EVEN FIT IN WITH NO ONE.IT WASNT UNTIL ABOUT 10 YEARS AFTER HIGH SCHOOL THAT I WAS EVER COMFORTABLE AND TRUELY FOUND MYSELF AND KNEW WHAT I WANTED IN LIFE IN GENERAL. IAM COMFORTABLE WITH WHO I AM IN LIFE TODAY AND I THINK WHAT I HAD ENDURED THROUGH OUT LIFE MADE ME WHO I AM. YES I WOULD LIKE MORE MONEY AND BE MORE COMFORTABLE IN THAT ASPECT, BUT IN LIFE IN GENERAL I AM RICH IN LOVE AND WHO COULD EVER WANT ANY MORE THAN THAT. YES I WISH MY HEALTH WAS ALOT BETTER BUT THEN AGAIN THAT IS A LONG WORK IN PROGRESS. SOME DAMAGE IS DONE SOME CAN BE REPAIRED OR CURED. SOME I WILL JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH.IT WASNT UNTILL I HIT ROCK BOTTOM THAT I WAS EVEN COMFORTABLE BEING A PART OF MY OWN FAMILY. I HAVE ALWAYS FEALT LIKE I WAS THE "BLACKSHEEP" OF THE FAMILY AND EVERYONE ALWAYS LOOKED DOWN ON ME.ONCE I FOUND MYSELF I COME TO TERMS THAT THEY COULD EXCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM OR KISS MY ASS. I ALSO FIGURED THERE VAIN AND SHALLOW THOUGHTS IS NO LOSS TO ME. IT IS THEIR LOSS NOT TO HAVE ME IN THEIR LIFE.IT WAS SOON AFTER MY FATHER WHO WAS MY BEST FRIEND AND THE ULTIMATE HERO DIED IN AUGUST OF 1997 THAT I REALIZED LIFE WAS TO SHORT NOT TO BE HAPPY AND ENJOY IT. I AM STILL LEARNING TO DEAL WITH THE LOSS AND THINK I WILL NEVER GET OVER IT I JUST LEARN TO COPE WITH IT, AND BE THE PERSON ID HOPE HE WANTED ME TO BE. I THINK I AM THERE AND THAT HE'D BE HAPPY WITH MY LIFE TODAY.I AM STARTING TO BUILD WHAT I WOULD SAY IS A GREAT FOUNDATION TO GREAT FRIENDSHIPS WITH A FEW FROM SCHOOL NOW. TRUE FRIEND WAS SOMETHING I NEVER HAD MUCH OF GROWING UP. SO I HOPE THEY DEVELOPE AND GROW INTO SOMETHING WE CAN CHERISH FOREVER. I THINK A FRIEND YOU CAN FINED EVERYDAY, BUT A TRUE FRIEND IS ONCE IN A LIFE TIME. ONCE THAT IS GONE YOU HAVE NOTHING
.UNTIL THE NEXT TIME
PEACE OUTFARON

BACK OFF

HERE LATELY A FEW PEOPLE HAVE BEEN PUTTING THEIR DAM NOSE WHEN IT DONT BELONG AND I AM DONE WITH IT. WHAY MY WIFE AND I DO IN OUR HOUSE ISNT NONE OF YOUR DAM BUSSINESS. GET OVER IT OR DONT READ WHAT I POST ON THE WEB. MOST WHO KNOW ME KNOW I AM A VERY OUTSPOKEN PERSON AND WILL SAY WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. SO BE IT. I AM WHO I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE.
FACEBOOK HAS BLESSED ME WITH A FEW OLD FRIENDS SOME I HAD NEVER REALLY TALKED TO IN SCHOOL SOME FOR DIFFERENT REASON. SOME BEAUSE I WAS TO SHY AND AFRAID OF REJECTION AND SOME I JUST DIDNT CARE FOR, BUT NOW WE ALL HAVE CHANGED THREW THE YEARS AND I FEEL BLESSED TO HAVE THEM AS FRIENDS NOW.
IT KILLS ME THAT A FEW THINK A MAN CAN'T HAVE A FEMALE FRIEND WITHOUT THRYING TO SCREW THEM. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD BOTH MALE AND FEMALE FRIENDS AND ALWAYS WILL. SO IF MY WIFE TRUSTS ME AND FELLS ALSO CONFORTABLE WITH IT. STFU, AND BACK OFF.
OK I AM DONE VENTING FOR THE FIRST TIME
WOW THIS IS AN AMAZING DAY
SMILE IT IS CONTAGIOUS

PEACE OUT
FARON